05-04-远离尘嚣 [37]
作为一个女人，而不是你的女主人，求你了。”
“当然可以，伊芙丁小姐。”盖伯瑞尔轻声说道。她的请求令他稍感意外，因为此刻天已渐黑，而此处又是一座偏僻寂静的山上，离开住所尚有一段距离。随着她转身走开，理由便明白了。一个士兵的身影出现在山上，前来与芭丝谢芭相会。盖伯瑞尔转过身去，伤心地回家去了。路过教堂时，他仔细查看了一下那个旧塔门，只见上面覆满藤蔓，显然已经有些年头没有人出入了。
半小时后，芭丝谢芭回到了家，满耳朵灌着托伊的情话。他第二次吻了她，使她激动不已，热情高涨。于是，她立刻坐下来给伯德伍德写信，告诉他自己不能嫁给他。这封信会在他外出办事途中送到他的手里。她急于马上把信发出，于是叫来利蒂，让她去寄。
“利蒂，你告诉我，”她的女仆进屋后，她便急切地说。“对我保证托伊中士不是坏人，对我保证他不像人们说的那样追逐女人。”
“可是，小姐，他追不追女人我也不好说呀……”
“别这么让我痛苦啦，利蒂。对我说你不相信他是坏人。”
“我不知道说什么好，小姐，”利蒂说着哭了起来。“不管我说什么，都会让你生气的！”
“哎呀，我可真软弱，我真不该看见他！你知道我爱他爱极了，利蒂！你千万别把我的秘密告诉别人啊，利蒂！”
“我会替你保密的，小姐。”利蒂轻声地说。
■ 11 Farmer Boldwood becomes desperate
Liddy was allowed a week's holiday to visit her sister，who lived a few miles away. To avoid seeing Mr Bold－wood，Bathsheba herself arranged to visit Liddy at her sister's home for a day or two. She left her cleaning-woman，Maryann，in charge of the house，and set out on foot one evening.
She had walked only about two miles when she saw，coming towards her，the one man who she did not wish to see. His changed appearance showed her that he had received her letter.
‘Oh，is it you，Mr Boldwood？’she said，with a guilty blush.
‘You know how I feel about you，’he said slowly. ‘A love as strong as death. A letter cannot change that feeling. ’
‘Don't speak of it，’she whispered.
‘Then I have nothing to say. Your letter was excellently clear. We are not going to marry. ’
Bathsheba said confusedly，‘Good evening，’and walked on a little further. But Boldwood could not let her go.
‘Bathsheba—darling—is it really final？’
‘Indeed it is. ’
‘Oh Bathsheba，have pity on me！I am mad with love for you！Don't refuse me now！You turned to me，and encour－aged me，before I ever thought of you！’
‘What you call encouragement was a childish joke. I'm deeply sorry I sent the valentine. Must you go on reminding me of it？’
‘I love you too much to blame you for it！Bathsheba，you are the first woman I have ever loved. How nearly you promised to marry me！What has happened to your kindness towards me？’
Bathsheba looked him quietly and openly in the face and said，‘Mr Boldwood，I promised you nothing. ’
‘How can you be so heartless！If I had known how awfully bitter this love would be，I'd have avoided you，and been deaf to you！I tell you all this，but what do you care！’
Bathsheba's control was breaking. She shook her head desperately as the man's angry words rained down on her.
‘Forgive me，sir！I can't love as you can！’
‘That's not a good reason，Miss Everdene！You aren't the cold woman you're pretending to be！You're hiding the fact that you've a burning heart like mine. Your love is given to another man！’
He knows！she thought. He knows about Frank！
‘Why didn't Troy leave my darling alone？he continued fiercely. ‘Tell me honestly，if you hadn't met him，would
“当然可以，伊芙丁小姐。”盖伯瑞尔轻声说道。她的请求令他稍感意外，因为此刻天已渐黑，而此处又是一座偏僻寂静的山上，离开住所尚有一段距离。随着她转身走开，理由便明白了。一个士兵的身影出现在山上，前来与芭丝谢芭相会。盖伯瑞尔转过身去，伤心地回家去了。路过教堂时，他仔细查看了一下那个旧塔门，只见上面覆满藤蔓，显然已经有些年头没有人出入了。
半小时后，芭丝谢芭回到了家，满耳朵灌着托伊的情话。他第二次吻了她，使她激动不已，热情高涨。于是，她立刻坐下来给伯德伍德写信，告诉他自己不能嫁给他。这封信会在他外出办事途中送到他的手里。她急于马上把信发出，于是叫来利蒂，让她去寄。
“利蒂，你告诉我，”她的女仆进屋后，她便急切地说。“对我保证托伊中士不是坏人，对我保证他不像人们说的那样追逐女人。”
“可是，小姐，他追不追女人我也不好说呀……”
“别这么让我痛苦啦，利蒂。对我说你不相信他是坏人。”
“我不知道说什么好，小姐，”利蒂说着哭了起来。“不管我说什么，都会让你生气的！”
“哎呀，我可真软弱，我真不该看见他！你知道我爱他爱极了，利蒂！你千万别把我的秘密告诉别人啊，利蒂！”
“我会替你保密的，小姐。”利蒂轻声地说。
■ 11 Farmer Boldwood becomes desperate
Liddy was allowed a week's holiday to visit her sister，who lived a few miles away. To avoid seeing Mr Bold－wood，Bathsheba herself arranged to visit Liddy at her sister's home for a day or two. She left her cleaning-woman，Maryann，in charge of the house，and set out on foot one evening.
She had walked only about two miles when she saw，coming towards her，the one man who she did not wish to see. His changed appearance showed her that he had received her letter.
‘Oh，is it you，Mr Boldwood？’she said，with a guilty blush.
‘You know how I feel about you，’he said slowly. ‘A love as strong as death. A letter cannot change that feeling. ’
‘Don't speak of it，’she whispered.
‘Then I have nothing to say. Your letter was excellently clear. We are not going to marry. ’
Bathsheba said confusedly，‘Good evening，’and walked on a little further. But Boldwood could not let her go.
‘Bathsheba—darling—is it really final？’
‘Indeed it is. ’
‘Oh Bathsheba，have pity on me！I am mad with love for you！Don't refuse me now！You turned to me，and encour－aged me，before I ever thought of you！’
‘What you call encouragement was a childish joke. I'm deeply sorry I sent the valentine. Must you go on reminding me of it？’
‘I love you too much to blame you for it！Bathsheba，you are the first woman I have ever loved. How nearly you promised to marry me！What has happened to your kindness towards me？’
Bathsheba looked him quietly and openly in the face and said，‘Mr Boldwood，I promised you nothing. ’
‘How can you be so heartless！If I had known how awfully bitter this love would be，I'd have avoided you，and been deaf to you！I tell you all this，but what do you care！’
Bathsheba's control was breaking. She shook her head desperately as the man's angry words rained down on her.
‘Forgive me，sir！I can't love as you can！’
‘That's not a good reason，Miss Everdene！You aren't the cold woman you're pretending to be！You're hiding the fact that you've a burning heart like mine. Your love is given to another man！’
He knows！she thought. He knows about Frank！
‘Why didn't Troy leave my darling alone？he continued fiercely. ‘Tell me honestly，if you hadn't met him，would