06-01-简·爱 [5]
到这些。我觉得那一定是鬼魂，是来自另一个世界的人。我的头胀起来，心狂跳不已。我耳朵听到的是不是翅膀的声音？是不是有什么东西在靠近我？我尖叫着冲到门口，使劲地摇门，阿伯特小姐和贝茜赶紧跑来开门。
“爱小姐，你病了吗？”贝茜问。
“把我放出去！”我尖叫着。
“为什么？怎么了？”她问。
“我看到一道光，我觉得那是鬼。”我哭着紧紧抓住贝茜的手。
“她连伤都没有，”阿伯特小姐厌恶地说。“她叫喊就是要我们来。我知道她的小把戏。”
“这是怎么了？”一个声音愤怒地问。里德太太出现在门口。“阿伯特，贝茜，我不是告诉你们我来之前让简待在这屋子里吗？”
“太太，她叫得太凶了，”贝茜轻声说。
“贝茜，让她松开手，”里德太太答道。“简·爱，你别以为这样就可以离开这屋子，你的捣蛋把戏对我行不通。你再在这里关一个钟头，罚你企图欺骗我们。”
“噢，舅妈，请原谅我！我受不了！你把我关在这儿，我会死的……”我尖叫着，在她手中挣扎着。
“安静！自制一点儿！”她把拼命反抗的我又推进房间里锁了起来。我重新陷入了黑暗，伴着寂静和鬼魂。我一定是昏过去了，其他的什么也记不起来了。
■ 2 Leaving Gateshead
I woke up to find the doctor lifting me very carefully into my own bed．It was good to be back in my familiar bedroom，with a warm fire and candle-light．It was also a great relief to recognize Dr Lloyd，who Mrs Reed called in for her servants（she always called a specialist for herself and the children）．He was looking after me so kindly．I felt he would protect me from Mrs Reed．He talked to me a little，then gave Bessie orders to take good care of me．When he left，I felt very lonely again．
But I was surprised to find that Bessie did not scold me at all．In fact she was so kind to me that I became brave enough to ask a question．
'Bessie，what's happened？Am I ill？'
'Yes，you became ill in the red room，but you'll get better，don't worry，Miss Jane，'she answered．Then she went next door to fetch another servant．I could hear her whispers．
'Sarah，come in here and sleep with me and that poor child tonight．I daren't stay alone with her，she might die．She was so ill last night！Do you think she saw a ghost？Mrs Reed was too hard on her，I think．'So the two servants slept in my room，while I lay awake all night，trembling with fear，and eyes wide open in horror，imagining ghosts in every corner．
Fortunately I suffered no serious illness as a result of my terrible experience in the red room，although I shall never forget that night．But the shock left me nervous and depressed for the next few days．I cried all day long and although Bessie tried hard to tempt me with nice things to eat or my favourite books，I took no pleasure in eating or even in reading．I knew I had no one to love me and nothing to look forward to．
When the doctor came again，he seemed a little surprised to find me looking so miserable．
'Perhaps she's crying because she couldn't go out with Mrs Reed in the carriage this morning，'suggested Bessie．
'Surely she's more sensible than that，'said the doctor，smiling at me．'She's a big girl now．'
'I'm not crying about that．I hate going out in the carriage．'I said quickly．'I'm crying because I'm miserable．'
'Oh really，Miss！'said Bessie．
The doctor looked at me thoughtfully．He had small，grey，intelligent eyes．Just then a bell rang for the servants'dinner．
'You can go，Bessie，'he said．'I'll stay here talking to Miss Jane till you come back．'
After Bessie had left，he asked，'What really made you ill？'
'I was locked up in a room with a ghost，in
“爱小姐，你病了吗？”贝茜问。
“把我放出去！”我尖叫着。
“为什么？怎么了？”她问。
“我看到一道光，我觉得那是鬼。”我哭着紧紧抓住贝茜的手。
“她连伤都没有，”阿伯特小姐厌恶地说。“她叫喊就是要我们来。我知道她的小把戏。”
“这是怎么了？”一个声音愤怒地问。里德太太出现在门口。“阿伯特，贝茜，我不是告诉你们我来之前让简待在这屋子里吗？”
“太太，她叫得太凶了，”贝茜轻声说。
“贝茜，让她松开手，”里德太太答道。“简·爱，你别以为这样就可以离开这屋子，你的捣蛋把戏对我行不通。你再在这里关一个钟头，罚你企图欺骗我们。”
“噢，舅妈，请原谅我！我受不了！你把我关在这儿，我会死的……”我尖叫着，在她手中挣扎着。
“安静！自制一点儿！”她把拼命反抗的我又推进房间里锁了起来。我重新陷入了黑暗，伴着寂静和鬼魂。我一定是昏过去了，其他的什么也记不起来了。
■ 2 Leaving Gateshead
I woke up to find the doctor lifting me very carefully into my own bed．It was good to be back in my familiar bedroom，with a warm fire and candle-light．It was also a great relief to recognize Dr Lloyd，who Mrs Reed called in for her servants（she always called a specialist for herself and the children）．He was looking after me so kindly．I felt he would protect me from Mrs Reed．He talked to me a little，then gave Bessie orders to take good care of me．When he left，I felt very lonely again．
But I was surprised to find that Bessie did not scold me at all．In fact she was so kind to me that I became brave enough to ask a question．
'Bessie，what's happened？Am I ill？'
'Yes，you became ill in the red room，but you'll get better，don't worry，Miss Jane，'she answered．Then she went next door to fetch another servant．I could hear her whispers．
'Sarah，come in here and sleep with me and that poor child tonight．I daren't stay alone with her，she might die．She was so ill last night！Do you think she saw a ghost？Mrs Reed was too hard on her，I think．'So the two servants slept in my room，while I lay awake all night，trembling with fear，and eyes wide open in horror，imagining ghosts in every corner．
Fortunately I suffered no serious illness as a result of my terrible experience in the red room，although I shall never forget that night．But the shock left me nervous and depressed for the next few days．I cried all day long and although Bessie tried hard to tempt me with nice things to eat or my favourite books，I took no pleasure in eating or even in reading．I knew I had no one to love me and nothing to look forward to．
When the doctor came again，he seemed a little surprised to find me looking so miserable．
'Perhaps she's crying because she couldn't go out with Mrs Reed in the carriage this morning，'suggested Bessie．
'Surely she's more sensible than that，'said the doctor，smiling at me．'She's a big girl now．'
'I'm not crying about that．I hate going out in the carriage．'I said quickly．'I'm crying because I'm miserable．'
'Oh really，Miss！'said Bessie．
The doctor looked at me thoughtfully．He had small，grey，intelligent eyes．Just then a bell rang for the servants'dinner．
'You can go，Bessie，'he said．'I'll stay here talking to Miss Jane till you come back．'
After Bessie had left，he asked，'What really made you ill？'
'I was locked up in a room with a ghost，in