The Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck [145]
“I don’ know.’’
“You think it was a sin to let my wife die like that?’’
“Well,’’ said Casy, “for anybody else it was a mistake, but if you think it was a sin—then it’s a sin. A fella builds his own sins right up from the groun’.’’
“I got to give that a goin’-over,’’ said Uncle John, and he rolled on his back and lay with his knees pulled up.
The truck moved on over the hot earth, and the hours passed. Ruthie and Winfield went to sleep. Connie loosened a blanket from the load and covered himself and Rose of Sharon with it, and in the heat they struggled together, and held their breaths. And after a time Connie threw off the blanket and the hot tunneling wind felt cool on their wet bodies.
On the back of the truck Ma lay on the mattress beside Granma, and she could not see with her eyes, but she could feel the struggling body and the struggling heart; and the sobbing breath was in her ear. And Ma said over and over, “All right. It’s gonna be all right.’’ And she said hoarsely, “You know the family got to get acrost. You know that.’’
Uncle John called, “You all right?’’
It was a moment before she answered. “All right. Guess I dropped off to sleep.’’ And after a time Granma was still, and Ma lay rigid beside her.
The night hours passed, and the dark was in against the truck. Sometimes cars passed them, going west and away; and sometimes great trucks came up out of the west and rumbled eastward. And the stars flowed down in a slow cascade over the western horizon. It was near midnight when they neared Daggett, where the inspection station is. The road was floodlighted there, and a sign illuminated, “KEEP RIGHT AND STOP.’’ The officers loafed in the office, but they came out and stood under the long covered shed when Tom pulled in. One officer put down the license number and raised the hood.
Tom asked, “What’s this here?’’
“Agricultural inspection. We got to look over your stuff. Got any vegetables or seeds?’’
“No,’’ said Tom.
“Well, we got to look over your stuff. You got to unload.’’
Now Ma climbed heavily down from the truck. Her face was swollen and her eyes were hard. “Look, mister. We got a sick ol’ lady. We got to get her to a doctor. We can’t wait.’’ She seemed to fight with hysteria. “You can’t make us wait.’’
“Yeah? Well, we got to look you over.’’
“I swear we ain’t got any thing!’’ Ma cried. “I swear it. An’ Granma’s awful sick.’’
“You don’t look so good yourself,’’ the officer said.
Ma pulled herself up the back of the truck, hoisted herself with huge strength. “Look,’’ she said.
The officer shot a flashlight beam up on the old shrunken face. “By God, she is,’’ he said. “You swear you got no seeds or fruits or vegetables, no corn, no oranges?’’
“No, no. I swear it!’’
“Then go ahead. You can get a doctor in Barstow. That’s only eight miles. Go on ahead.’’
Tom climbed in and drove on.
The officer turned to his companion. “I couldn’ hold ’em.’’
“Maybe it was a bluff,’’ said the other.
“Oh, Jesus, no! You should of seen that ol’ woman’s face. That wasn’t no bluff.’’
Tom increased his speed to Barstow, and in the little town he stopped, got out, and walked around the truck. Ma leaned out. “It’s awright,’’ she said. “I didn’ wanta stop there, fear we wouldn’ get acrost.’’
“Yeah! But how’s Granma?’’
“She’s awright—awright. Drive on. We got to get acrost.’’ Tom shook his head and walked back.
“Al,’’ he said, “I’m gonna fill her up, an’ then you drive some.’’ He pulled to an all-night gas station and filled the tank and the radiator, and filled the crank case. Then Al slipped under the wheel and Tom took the outside, with Pa in the middle. They drove away into the darkness and the little hills near Barstow were behind them.
Tom said, “I don’ know what’s got into Ma. She’s flighty as a dog with a flea in his ear. Wouldn’ a took long to look over the stuff. An’ she says Granma’s sick; an’ now she says Granma’s awright. I can’t figger her out. She ain’t right. S’pose she wore her brains out on the trip.’’
Pa said, “Ma’s almost like she was when she was a girl. She was a wild one then. She wasn