All the King's Men - Robert Penn Warren [80]
“Yes,” Mr. White said.
“Louder” And say, ‘I got that.’ ”
He said it. Louder.
“All right,” the Boss said, “I’m going to stop this impeachment business for you. But don’t go and get the notion it’s because I love you. It’s just because those fellows can’t get the idea they can just up and knock off somebody. Are my motives clear?”
“Yes,” Mr. White said.
“All right, then sit down over there at the desk.” And the Boss pointed at the little desk with the pen tray and telephone. “Get a sheet of plain paper out of the drawer and take your pen in hand.” He waited until Mr. White had glided spectrally across the room and settled himself at the desk, making himself remarkably small, like the genie getting ready to go back into the bottle, drawing himself into hunch as though he wanted to assume the prenatal position and be little and warm and safe in the dark. But the Boss was saying, “Now write what I say.” Then he began to dictate: “Dear Governor Stark,–because of ill health–which renders it difficult for me to attend consciously–” The Boss interrupted himself, saying, “Be sure you put that consciously in now, you wouldn’t want to leave that out,” and then continued in the business voice–“to the duties of my position as Auditor–I wish to offer my resignation–to take effect as soon after the above date–as you can relieve me.” He eyed the hunched figure, and added, “Respectfully yours.”
There was a silence, and the pen scratched across the paper, then stopped. But Mr. White’s tall, bald, narrow head remained bent over close to the paper, as though he were nearsighted, or praying, or had lost whatever it is in the back of a neck that keeps a head up straight.
The Boss studied the back of the bent head. Then he demanded, “Did you sign it?”
“No,” the voice said.
“Well, God damn it, sign!” The when the pen had again stopped scratching across the paper, “Don’t put any date on it. I can fill that in when I want.”
Mr. White’s head did not lift. From where I sat I could see that his hand still held the pen staff, the point still touching the paper at the end of the last letter of his name.
“Bring it here,” the Boss said.
Mr. White rose and turned, and I looked at his still bent-over face to see what I could see. His eyes didn’t have any appeal in them now as he swung them past me. They didn’t have anything in them. They were as numb and expressionless as a brace of gray oysters on the half shell.
He held out the sheet to the Boss, who read it, folded it, tossed it over to the foot of the bed near which he sat. “Yeah,” he said, “I’ll fill in the date when I need to. If I need to. It all depends on you. But you know, Byram–why I didn’t get one of those undated resignations from you from the start I don’t know. I got a stack of ’em. But I just misjudged you. I just took one look at you, and said, ‘Shucks, there ain’t any harm in the old bugger.’ I figured you were so beat down you’d know the good Lord never meant for you to be rich. I figured you never would try to pull any shines. Shucks, I figured you didn’t have any more initiative than a wet washrag dropped on the bathroom floor in a rooming house for old maids. I was wrong, Byram, I am free to confess. Fifty years old and all that time just waiting your one big chance. Waiting for your ship to come in. Saving up one little twitch and try like a one-nut for his wedding night. Waiting for the big chance, and that was it, and everything was going to be different. But–” and he whipped the forefinger at Mr. White again–“you were wrong, Byram. This was not your chance. And there never will be one. Not for the likes of you. Now get out!”
Mr. White got out. One second he was there, and the next second he wasn’t there, and there had been scarcely a sound for his passing. There was just the empty space which had been occupied by the empty space which went by the name of Mr. Byram B. White.