All the King's Men - Robert Penn Warren [63]
So I tried to make what amends I could for being what I was, and pulled out the soft-and sweet stop, and said, “Yeah, we did have a good time when we were kids, you and Anne and me.”
Yes, Adam Stanton, Anne Stanton, and Jack Burden, back in Burden’s Landing, had a good time when they were children by the sea. A squall might, and did, pile in off the Gulf, and the sky blacked out with the rain and the palm trees heaved in distraction and then leaned steady with the vanes gleaming like wet tin in the last turgid, bilious, tattered light, but it didn’t chill us or kill us in the kingdom by the sea, for we were safe inside a white house, their house or my house, and stood by the window to watch the surf pile up beyond the sea wall like whipped cream. And back in the room behind us would be Governor Stanton or Mr. Ellis Burden, or both, for they were friends, or Judge Irwin, for he was a friend, too, and there wasn’t a wind that would ever have the nerve to bother Governor Stanton or Mr. Ellis Burden or Judge Irwin.
“You and Anne and me,” Adam Stanton had said to me, and I had said it to him. So one morning, after I had managed to get out of bed, I called Anne up, and said, “I hadn’t thought about you in a long time, but the other night I saw Adam and he said you and he and I used to have a good time when we were kids. So how about having dinner with me? Even if we are on crutches now.” She said she would. She certainly wasn’t on crutches, but we didn’t have any fun.
She asked me what I was doing, and I told her, “Not a blessed thing. Just waiting for my cash to run out.” She didn’t tell me I ought to do something, and didn’t look it. Which was something. So I asked her what she was doing, and she laughed and said, “Not a blessed thing.” Which I knew was a lie, for she was always fooling around with orphans and half-wits and blind niggers, and not even getting paid for it. And looking at her you could know it was all a waste of something and the something wasn’t money. So I said, “Well, I hope you’re doing it in pleasant company.”
“Not particularly,” she said.
I looked at her close and saw what I knew I would see and what I had seen a good many times when she wasn’t sitting across from me. I saw Anne Stanton, who was not exactly a beauty maybe but who was Anne Stanton. Anne Stanton: the brown-toned, golden-lighted face, not as dark as Adam’s, with a hint of the positive structure beneath the skin, which was drawn over the bone with something, a suggestion, of the tension which was in Adam’s face, as though the fabricator of the job hadn’t wanted to waste any material in softness and slacknesses and had stylized the product pretty cleanly. The dark hair drawn smoothly, almost tautly, away from the accurate part. The blue eyes which looked at you like Adam’s eyes, with the same directness, but in which the clear, abstract, ice-blue was replaced by a deeper, coiling, troubled blue. Sometimes, anyway. They looked alike, Adam and Anne. They might have been twins. They even had the same smile. But the mouth it came on was, in Anne’s case, different. It didn’t carry any suggestion of the nice, clean, decisive, well-healed surgical wound. The fabricator had, on this item, allowed himself the luxury of a little extra material. Not too much. But enough.
That was Anne Stanton, and I saw what I knew I would see.
She sat there before me, very erect, with her head held high and straight on the fine, round stalk of her neck above the small, squarish shoulders, and with her rather small but roundly modeled bare arms laid close to her sides in mathematical accuracy. And looking at her, I though how, below the level of the table, her small legs would be laid accurately together, thigh to thigh, knee to knee, ankle to ankle. There was, in fact, always something a little stylized about her–something of the effect one observes in certain Egyptian bas-reliefs and statuettes of princesses of a late period, forms in which grace and softness, without being the less grace or softness, are caught in mathematical formality. Anne Stanton always looked level at you, and you had the feeling that she was looking at something far away. She always held her head high, and you had the feeling that she was waiting for a voice which you wouldn