All the King's Men - Robert Penn Warren [232]
He looked up at her for the first time.
“Willie,” she said, “it’s time to go.”
He stood up from the chair, and I got their coats off the couch by the wall. I helped Lucy on with hers, and then she picked up the other and helped him. I didn’t interfere.
They started for the door. He had drawn himself erect now and looked straight ahead, but her hand was still on his arm, and if you had seen them you would have got the impression that she was expertly and tactfully guiding a blind man. I opened the door for them, and then went on ahead to tell Sugar-Boy to get the car ready.
I was there when the Boss got into the car and she got in after him. That surprised me a little, but it didn’t hurt my feelings if Sugar-Boy drove her home. Despite the coffee, I was ready to drop.
I went back inside and up to Adam’s office. He was just about ready to pull out. “What is the story?” I asked.
“What I said,” he said. “The cord is crushed. That means paralysis. The prognosis is that for a time the limbs will be absolutely limp. Then the muscle tone will come back. But he will never use arms or legs. The bodily function will continue but without control. He’ll be like a baby. And the skin will be inclined to break down. He will get infections easily. The respiratory control will be impaired, too. Pneumonia will be likely. That’s what usually knock off cases like this sooner or later.”
“It sounds to me the sooner the better,” I said, and thought of Lucy Stark.
“Maybe so,” he said, tiredly. He was sagging now, all right. He slipped on his coat and picked up his bag. “Can I drop you somewhere?” he asked.
“Thanks, I’m in my car,” I said. Then my eyes fell on the telephone on his desk. “But I’ll make a call, if I may,” I said. “I’ll pull the door to.”
“All right,” he said, and went to the door. “Good night,” he added, and went out.
I dialed outside, and got Anne’s number, and told her the news. She said it was horrible. She kept saying that into the telephone–“It is horrible”–in a low bemused voice, three or four times. Then she thanked me and hung up.
I left the office. I had one more errand to do. I went down to the lobby. Sadie was still there. So I told her. She said it was pretty tough. I agreed.
“It will be tough on the Boss,” she said.
“It will be tough as hell on Lucy,” I said, “for she is the one who will have to fix the baby. Don’t forget that while you’re giving out the free samples of sympathy.”
She must have been pretty tired or something for that didn’t make her mad. So I asked her if I could take her into town. She had her car, too, she said.
“Well, I am going home and sleep forever,” I said, and left her in the lobby.
By the time I got out to my car, the sky was curdling blue with dawn.
The accident occurred on Saturday afternoon. The operation was performed just before dawn on Sunday. The big pay-off was on Monday. It was the Monday before Thanksgiving.
That day, there was a gradual piling up of events, then the rush to the conclusion, as when a great weight that has been grinding and slipping suddenly breaks the last mooring and takes the plunge. As I experienced that day, there was at first an impression of the logic of the events, caught flickeringly at moments, but as they massed to the conclusion I was able to grasp, at the time, only the slightest hints as to the pattern that was taking shape. This lack of logic, the sense of people and events driven by impulses which I was no able to define, gave the whole occasion the sense of a dreamlike unreality. It was only after the conclusion, after everything was over, that the sense of reality returned, long after, in fact, when I had been able to gather the pieces of the puzzle up and put them together to see the pattern. This is not remarkable, for, as we know, reality is not a function of the event as event, but of the relationship of that event to past, and future, events. We seem here to have a paradox: that the reality of an event, which is not real in itself, arises from other events which, likewise, in themselves are not real. But this only affirms what we must affirm: that direction is all. And only as we realize this do we live, for our own identity is dependent upon this principle.