All the King's Men - Robert Penn Warren [161]
It was fine, peaceful, beautiful thought and I took my eyes off the green below and lay back in my swivel chair, with my heels on the desk, and shut my eyes and thought of swooping down and bursting through the green to the sudden green quietness inside. I lay back with my eyes closed and listen to the electric fan, which was humming like a dream, and could almost feel the wonderful swoop and then the poise inside. It was a fine idea. If you had wings.
Then I heard the racket outside in the reception room, and opened my eyes. Somebody had slammed a door. Then I caught the whir of a passage and Sadie Burke swung into my ken, making a great curve through my open door, and, all in one motion, slamming it behind her and charging on my direction. She stood in front of my desk and fought for air enough to say what she had to say.
It was just like old times. I hadn’t seen her worked up that much since the morning when she had found out about the Nordic Nymph who had skated her way into the Boss’s bed up in Chicago a long time back. That morning she had exploded out of the Boss’s door, and had described a parabola into my office, with her black chopped-off hair wild and her face like a riddled plaster-of-Paris mask of Medusa except for the hot bituminous eyes, which were in full blaze with a bellows pumping the flame.
Well, since that morning there had, no doubt, been plenty of occasions when Sadie and the Boss had not exactly eye to eye. The Boss had had everything from the Nordic Nymph to the household-hints columnist on the Chronicle in his life, and Sadie hadn’t been exactly condoning–for Sadie did not have a condoning nature–but a peculiar accommodation had finally been reached. “Damn him,” Sadie had said to me, “let him have his sluts, let him have them. But he’ll always come back to me. He knows he can’t get along without me. He knows he can’t.” And she had added grimly, “And he better not try.” So, with her fury and her God-damns and her satire and her tongue-lashing–and she had a tongue like a cat-o’-nine-tails–and even with her rare bursts of dry-eyed grief, she seemed to take a kind of pleasure, wry and twisted enough God knows, in watching the development of the pattern in each new-old case, in watching the slut get bounced and the Boss come back to stand before her, grinning and heavy and sure and patient, to take his tongue-lashing. A long time back she herself had probably ceased to believe in the tongue-lashing or even to think what she was saying. The juicy epithets had long since lost their fine savor and a strident mechanical quality had crept into the rendering of the scene. Like a stuck phonograph record or a chicken-hungry preacher getting over the doxology. The word came but her mind wasn’t on them.
But it was different that fine May morning. It was like old times, all right, with her bosom heaving and the needle of the steam gauge pricking deep into the red on the dial. Then she blew the plug.
“He’s done it,” she blew, “he’s done it again–and I swear–”
“Done what?” I demanded, though I knew perfectly well what he had done. He had another slut.
“He’s two-timing me,” she said.
I lay back in my swivel chair and looked at her. The bright morning light was hitting her face square and without pity, but her eyes were magnificent.
“The bastard,” she said, “he’s two-timing me!”
“Now, Sadie,” I said, lying back in my chair and sighting at her over the toes of my shoes crossed on the desk, “we went into that arithmetic a long time back. He’s not two-timing you. He’s two-timing Lucy. He may be one-timing you, or four-timing you. But it can’t be two-timing.” I was watching her eyes, and just saying that to see if it was possible to put a little more snap into them. It was.
For she said, “You–you–” Then words failed her.
“Me what?” I defended myself.
“You–you and your high-toned friends–what do they know–what do they know about anything–and you’ve got to mix them in.”
“What are you talking about?”
“I may not be high-toned and maybe I live in a shack but it hadn’t been for me he wouldn’t be Governor this minute and he knows it and she better not get gay, for high-toned or not, I