All the King's Men - Robert Penn Warren [148]
But now the street was blank, and dim, with a leaning lamppost at the end of the block, and the cobbles oily-greasy-glimmering in its rays and the houses shuttered, and the whole thing looked like a set for a play. You expected to see the heroine saunter up, lean against the lamppost and light a cigarette. She didn’t come, however, and Anne Stanton and I walked straight through the set, which you knew was cardboard until you put out your hand to touch the damp, furry brick or spongy stucco. We walked on through without talking. Perhaps for the reason that if you are in a place like that which looks like a cardboard stage set and is so damned q-u-a-i-n-t, whatever you say will sound as though it had been written by some lop-haired, swivel-hipped fellow who lived in one of those cardboard houses in an upstairs apartment (overlooking the patio–Oh, Jesus, yes, overlooking the patio) and wrote a play for the Little Theater which began with the heroine sauntering into a dim street between rows of cardboard houses and leaning against an askew lamppost to light a cigarette. But Anne Stanton was not that heroine, so she didn’t lean against the lamppost and didn’t say a word, and we kept on walking.
We walked on down till we came to the river, where the warehouses were and the docks fingered out into the water. The metal roofs of the docks glimmered dully in the rays of the street lamps. Above the pilings of the docks a thick tangle of mist coiled and drifted, broken here and there to show the sleek, velvety, motionless water, which glimmered darkly like the metal of the roofs, or like a seal’s black, water-slick fur. A few docks down, the stubby masts of freighters were barely visible against the dark sky. Somewhere downstream a horn was hooting and moaning. We moved along beside the docks, looking out into the river, which was tufted and matted over the blackness with the scraggly, cirrus, cottony mist. But the mist stayed close to the surface of the river, and to look out over it made you think of being on a mountain at night and looking for miles out over clouds below. There were a few lights over on the far shore.
We came to an open pier which I remembered as the place where excursion boats picked up their crowds in summer afternoons for the moonlight ride up the river–big, jostling, yelling, baby-carrying, pop-and-likker-drinking, sweating crowds. But there wasn’t any big side-wheeler there now, white as wedding cake, cranky and improbable, with red and gilt decorations, and no calliope was playing “Dixie” and no whistles blowing. The place was as still as a tomb and as blank as Gobi on a moonless night. We walked out to the end of the pier, leaned on the railing, and looked across the river.
“All right,” I said.
She didn’t answer.
“All right,” I repeated, “I thought you wanted to talk.”
“It’s Adam,” she said.
“What about Adam? I asked, evenly.
“You know–you know perfectly well–you went there and–”
“Look here,” I said, and I felt my blood getting up and my voice taking on an edge, “I went there and made him a proposition. He’s a grown man and if he doesn’t like it he doesn’t have to take it. There’s no use blaming me and–”
“I’m not blaming you,” she said.
“You just started to jump me,” I said, “but if Adam can’t make up his own mind and can’t take care of himself, you needn’t blame me.”
“I’m not blaming you, Jack. You’re so jumpy and touchy, Jack.” She laid her hand on my arm, on the rail, and patted me, and I felt the head of steam in me drop a few pounds of pressure.
“If he can’t take care of himself, then you–” I began.
But she cut in, quick and sharp, “He can’t. That’s the trouble.”
“Now, look here, all I did was to offer him a proposition.”
Her hand, which had been laid on my forearm to soothe me and pat down the steam pressure, suddenly clamped on me, driving the fingers damned near to the bone. I jumped, an even as I jumped, I heard her say, in a low, tense voice, almost a whisper,